They will not stop talking to me. They will speak to one another, then to me, there are 3 or 4 and they are making my migraines worse. The headaches are growing in intensity, the migraines in frequency. But the voices, they started about a month ago and have become more distinct, but one is [...]
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voices
Posted in 1, 9-11, AAR, Beyond the front, Buddhist, DA, Fine Day, Gregg Zoroya, Lincoln University, Loss of freedom, Lt. Col. George Wright, Military Health System, Suicide Commando, Suicide by Cop, VA, afghanistan, army, art, back pain, battlefield trauma, baumholder, beauty of life, bell, birthday, bosnia, casey, catherine whitney, civilian supporting soldiers, dr. phil, fighting back, ft riley, ft stewart, going to school naked, hanau, hell, horrors of war, m1a1, mental health, migraine, migs, miley cyrus, military baggage, mtbi, neck pain, neda, pain, photographic censorship, photography, politics, ppp, ptsd, realistic combat situations, sniper, soldiers, stars and strips, stigma, suicide prevention, tank, teamwork, title 5, troopm, urinalyses, usa today, veterans, vets, war, weakness, wiesbaden on September 28, 2009 | 3 Comments »
Dreams
Posted in 1, 9-11, Beyond the front, Buddhist, DA, Fine Day, Loss of freedom, Military Health System, Suicide Commando, Suicide by Cop, VA, afghanistan, army, art, back pain, battlefield trauma, baumholder, beauty of life, bell, birthday, bosnia, casey, catherine whitney, civilian supporting soldiers, dr. phil, fighting back, ft riley, ft stewart, going to school naked, hanau, hell, horrors of war, m1a1, mental health, migraine, migs, miley cyrus, military baggage, mtbi, neck pain, pain, photographic censorship, photography, politics, ppp, ptsd, realistic combat situations, sniper, soldiers, stars and strips, stigma, suicide prevention, tank, teamwork, title 5, traumatic event, troopm, urinalyses, usa today, veterans, vets, war, weakness, wiesbaden on September 22, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
I force myself to close my eye and submit to this hell each evening but as the night approaches, I feel my mood change. I want to distance myself from people, from things, and I want to focus upon something other than life, or this life, I choose my photography……it is like a snap of time, a forgotten moment I can fall back into forgetting for a moment where I am soon headed.
Going to School Naked
Posted in 1, 9-11, AAR, Beyond the front, Buddhist, DA, Fine Day, Gregg Zoroya, Lincoln University, Loss of freedom, Lt. Col. George Wright, Military Health System, Suicide Commando, Suicide by Cop, VA, afghanistan, army, art, back pain, battlefield trauma, baumholder, beauty of life, bell, birthday, bosnia, casey, catherine whitney, civilian supporting soldiers, dr. phil, fighting back, ft riley, ft stewart, going to school naked, hanau, hell, horrors of war, m1a1, mental health, migraine, migs, miley cyrus, military baggage, mtbi, neck pain, neda, pain, photographic censorship, photography, politics, ppp, ptsd, realistic combat situations, sniper, soldiers, stars and strips, stigma, suicide prevention, tank, teamwork, title 5, traumatic event, troopm, urinalyses, usa today, veterans, vets, war, weakness, wiesbaden on September 4, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
The first time I had this was 2 weeks after my accident. Normally this happens when it does not matter but on this day, it occurred when I had too military officers breathing down my neck. It was embarrassing, like going to school naked
I have conquered my feelings
Posted in 1, 9-11, AAR, Beyond the front, Buddhist, DA, Fine Day, Gregg Zoroya, Lincoln University, Loss of freedom, Lt. Col. George Wright, Military Health System, Suicide Commando, Suicide by Cop, VA, afghanistan, army, art, back pain, battlefield trauma, baumholder, beauty of life, bell, birthday, bosnia, casey, catherine whitney, civilian supporting soldiers, dr. phil, fighting back, ft riley, ft stewart, hanau, hell, horrors of war, m1a1, mental health, migraine, migs, miley cyrus, military baggage, mtbi, neck pain, neda, pain, photographic censorship, photography, politics, ppp, ptsd, realistic combat situations, sniper, soldiers, stars and strips, stigma, suicide prevention, tank, teamwork, title 5, traumatic event, troopm, urinalyses, usa today, veterans, war, weakness, wiesbaden, tagged god, ptsd, suicide, army, life, DA, conquered feeling, navy, troop, hopelessness, communication, dod on September 1, 2009 | 1 Comment »
Thought like those bring back feeling of being god again, knowing you might die, just not knowing when but also knowing that you hold the lives of others in your hand. But I have gained control of that dark demon and placed it away. For anyone else who has felt those, who have gone through the same issue I have written about, you might conquer those feelings but for some reason I feel you must remain vigilant for I do not think those demons are forever gone. They become a part of you.
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