September 3rd, a wonderful day I did not have. I sat at my desk and for about an hour, was unable to do anything, not because I was lazy or distracted nor did my computer crash. It was not because of excessive noise or even my migraine. I was having a serious migraine. My neck, back, hand, arm and both legs hurt but I am used to that as it is my daily life. I am able to work around those days.
But I was having a day which does not come often, a day when my cognitive skills fail. Once in a blue moon there are moments where I go stupid, when I cannot remember how to read, to do math, where the basics go out the window and memory is something I do not have. No it is not Alzheimer’s but worse, a cognitive dysfunction associated with mTBI.
The first time I had this was 2 weeks after my accident. Normally this happens when it does not matter but on this day, it occurred when I had too military officers breathing down my neck. It was embarrassing, like going to school naked
No worries, it is treatable not that they (the military and the VA) understand mTBI after so many years of this conflict. So as of the 1st of September, I am now recognized as having a mTBI (finally) so maybe the end to all this will be sight. It just raised my mind up a notch from it pit of depression.
Let’s keep this on this path. Even though I had a downer, an embarrassing moment, I recognize the positive to come from it. I just hope that people will just start to gain an understanding and compassion for VETs like myself and what we go through.
Again I have to say this, I work for a WTB, and they are complacent to the needs of the Wounded and the VET despite their years of medical training. I have an outsider’s eye to this operation and as a wounded soul, I see they will only learn they day they too become like me and are entered into this program. Only then will they have an understanding to make a change.
Wow, did I get off the subject again, my mind races doesn’t it!
